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Okay most people know I have a really crappy relationship with my mom. This is mostly because I hate the guys my mom tries to marry. Obviously I hate them she hates them but won't admit it. Now yeah I'm 13 so I know I'm gonna get the crap of you don't know what love is, you don't want your mom to be happy, you don't want a new dad, and blah blah blah. Those are all false! I do want my mom, I do know what love is and I wouldn't mind a new dad. However my mom is not happy with the a** she's engaged too, they have nothing to agree on and they live on different plants. Biggest thing they don't agree on is politics and gay rights. My mom is a democrat and supports same sex rights he is the opposite of all of that. Which becomes very tempting to say I'm a bisexual I'm not but to piss him off heck I might. xp Second I don't hate all my mom's boyfriends there was to I liked and one I was devastated when when they got engaged and broke up. This was about 4 years ago and it still hurts. But at sometime I do want to marry this loser but to punish her. She lies to me like there's no tomorrow. She told me that if I'm not happy with anyone she dates all I have to do is tell her and she'll end it. Guess how many times I've told her that, 3 now guess how many boyfriends she's had, 5 and now out of all 3 times how many times had she listen to me. ZERO! stare Since she didn't listen to me she has had her nose and eye broken (both are now fine) with one boyfriend. Her being killed by one boyfriend and the cops called twice. After the cops were called after her ex-boyfriend tried to kill her she got back with him behind my back and to this day she still doesn't know that I know. Yes I was eavesdropping but she was having a fight with him over the phone. Then she tried to make me forgive him. I told her maybe, but in my mind I was thinking "Um, no chance in France are you ******** loony?" Although as much as I want to punish my mom I just want her to be happy. That's why I want her to get back with her boyfriend of 6years or someone like him. That's why I kinda looked him up on MySpace and I did find him and he's single but I have no idea if I should add him or not. Adding him could be very good and/or very bad. If my mom finds out I added him it could ruin our relationship but hell what kinda relationship do we have now?
~Please comment me with your opinions.