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All I want to do is write and I care not if your there to answer me! No I don't!

Guess what? I went to the docter and I, a 21 year old mother of two has high blood pressure, I have to continue with my exercise cuts out salts and sugar from my diet, not intirely but I need to watch it, and get more sleep. I never sleep though I have the past two nights and should be now. I am supposed to meditate and though I used to, I haven't had the chance in a while, I should exercise more than I am, but who are we kidding, I can't, I don't have time, okay I do have time I just don't right now. Winter sucks, I can't walk and I am used to walking at least twice a day four times a week... I miss hiking and last summer I didn't do any cause I was pregnant. I am trapped in the house with a two year old who is bored out of his mind, my mother and brother are still here and I feel like I might lose my mind any second of everyday since the day I had my second son. I also have see little of my husband getting home after 8 lately because of meetings and going straight to bed, is making me wonder though I shouldn't, right? I am tired, sure but I don't always feel like sleeping and christmas seems to have taken the life out of me. I may have a mild case of depression and I may need to learn how to take care fo myself better, but I am not sure which will happen faster, perhaps I need a change of atmosphere, scenary whatever the catch phrase is. Maybe I need to um... any ideas?