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those emotions coming towards me so rapidly at once..i hardly have the chance to think.
jealousy is an ugly word,
why do i care,
why am i jealous.
wait...why the hell AM I jealous?
there is nothing to be jealous about!.
...is it?
what the hell am i worried about?
i fear that something will bring out the worst of me...

whats gone is already gone.
i threw it away like a fool.

so why cant i grow and move on..

...i knew that this was going to happen when school started.

i tried to fill these feeling with hate..
it all seemed to work until a girl sent me a message saying:

1.hatred are the cinders of affection...
2.we spend our time searching for something, and hate it when we get it.
3. when men are ruled by fear. they strive to prevent the very changes that will abate it.
4.life begins on the other side of despair...

WHAT THE ********!?!?!
dam that is so true..
what perfect timing she had...as if she was watching me..

as i read these over and over i become more confident.
im being nervous and scared for what? NOTHING...
i told a person to stop being a punk b***h...if im scared of little s**t..what does that make me?

i need to change this....

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