and I kinda love him.Like accually truely love him more than ever possible.We're dating but,I don't consider it dating cause we're together but I think of him as my best friend not my boyfriend.I've known him since 3rd grade and I never seen me loving him coming.So yeah,I care about him more than I thought.I was in denial about it earlier while I was dating and thinking some stupid things of another I thought I loved untill I relized I loved him not the other.We've been dating since the fith of this month and have we held each other?yes. Have we told eachother how much we cared?yes. but have we kissed?no. and have we said I love you?no.
But the point is,I don't care that we haven't kissed,as long as he's here.And do I care that we haven't said I love you?no I don't because I'm not going to tell him unless I'm absolutly positive I do,but right now,there's still 5 percent of me that's denying it.
and has he treated me perfect?no. and is he perfect? no. but my point is,he hasn't treated me perfect,but he's ALWAYS been there for me and never lied to me and even when we were just friends he trated me better than ANYONE I've dated.No,he's not perfect,he has his flaws like everyone else but do I think he's perfect for me? yes. because part of the reason I love him is because his flaws.
So how do I feel arond him? I don't know but I can tell you it's incredibly strong,and it takes my breath away.When he's with me,I feel like anything is possible and there's just this bond between us.and when he's with me,I always feel better,I'm not so sad or so scared and I know he understands where I'm coming from and I understand where he's coming from.
Now we still joke around like always but we're close.and when he told me he cares about me more than anyone he's ever has do I belive him? for once in my life,I fully trust him and believes he does.
So,yeah,there's this boy who I'd do anything for and means the world to me,with out a second thought.
XxLatent_NightmarexX · Sun Aug 30, 2009 @ 05:15pm · 1 Comments |