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Be a child before twenty five

As I try to find the path I will try
Try so hard but not to look too far
I don’t know why still I try
Pushing knowing nothing
Something is eating me up is side
I what it to die
Pull on her hair
Push him down the stairs
Still I don’t know if I can bear
Bear the pain of the everyday
Nothing like feeling good
Is only for a little while
Still all I know it was here
I need to know
I want someone to hold
It seems like I’m holding it together
But I know inside im not
Still I now I will reach the top
The top of my mind where I can slide down
Although it may not make any since
that’s all good
I want to hold your hand no matter what
Because I don’t give a ********
I need to know on how but now I can see
See what I need to do still I cant see you
How is this to be don’t
Kick me out tomorrow
But tonight I need some where to stay
I don’t know what to do or say
but I know I need some love by the way
Look at it all just let it all fall
Knowing how but I cant see what
Will I ever know
Even when I turn twenty five
Still will I ever die on the inside
Although I say I’m not here
My eyes aren’t closed
Because I can see the whole pitcher
Didn’t your know
But just don’t ask me anything
I may look spaced at times but its all good
I will push on and never grow up
Because somewhere in the end I had nothing to do with something
But I don’t know what so I’ll take the blame
As you carry me I will take the blame
But look how far we got so don’t worry now
There will be a tomorrow
Less time to sleep now
But I got closer to twenty five
Still I I’m a child on the out side