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some of my favorite poems...
In the darkness I can never see
what stares back at me,
and for that I am eternally grateful.
My anger and sorrow
are the only things there.
Their mocking eyes dig
deep within my mind.
They burn through my heart
and light up my sky.
And I had thought
I could get away from this.
Simple words spoken,
I thought could cure.
But unwilling ears to listen
made it all obscure.
I feel like I've let you down.
The life I see in front of me,
just doesn't seem real anymore.
And not knowing if I'd ever
see you again,
is the worse feeling I've felt.
I've been told that
you don't care.
I've been told that
you don't deserve me.
But I find myself
wishing you'd be there.
I loved you then and
I love you now, but
the scariest thought,
is that I'll love you forever.
Even though forever is gone.
So I'll turn on the light
and face my anger and sorrow.
I'll push them aside
and try to move by.
I'll wipe the tears
that drown my eyes
and create a new heart.
I'll get by, even if
I have to bury my soul.
I'm standing in the rain
Its washing this pain away
The rain makes me weak
But I feel so alive
The pain is finally gone
Until the rain stops
Then the pain comes back
But the hurting is worse
I wish the rain could drown this pain
Take it away
Cause its killing me
If its not one thing its another
When it rains I go outside
Just to feel it on my skin
It makes me feel alive
And it takes away this pain
And I can cry cause I know no one can see
Over and over again I wish that I could fly away
Fly away to another day
Another day where this pain isn't here.
It's so cold down here
Far beneath the ground
I recalled your tender words
The day my corpse was found
You had said I looked different
Like someone stole the light from my eyes
You had said love was a gun
You loved me most the day I died
Remembering how glad I was
To see your face again
Sadly staring down at me
Reaching into the water
Your touch was so warm
If only I could fill myself with it
Untying the rope, you set me free
How long I've waited... I just want to go home
Released, you of emotional ties
Betrayed, I never again shall be
Torn away into eternal darkness
Undertow wrested me helplessly downward
Punished me for a mile or more
I washed upon a distant shore
Springs fresh air invited decay
Eventually somebody came... to take me home
All the things you were to me
My love, my light, my misery
Bathing myself in the comfort of memories
Despairs still long-lived, even after life
Now, it's so cold down here
Far beneath the ground
I am dead on the outside, but still dying inside
Fortitude in you, is my relentless love
I see a sad girl sitting all alone
Clutching tightly to the phone
I see her longing for a love that has gone away
Her eyes tear remembering when she asked him to stay
Her tears fall to the floor
As her mind goes back once more
This lonely girl is broken hearted
Because half of her soul has parted
And then finally I see
The lonely, little girl is me
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