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I keep telling myself that I'm going to lose weight. I keep saying "I'm going to exercise". Keep saying "I'm REALLY gonna do it this time."

All for what? To give up in about a week (two maximum, that one time for Prom). It's...it's just depressing. I'm sick of it. I haven't weighed myself since May, but back then I was 170Lbs. According to the BMI charts, I am obese.

BLUH!

Okay. I'm going to try again. I managed to get myself down eleven pounds back in May (181 being my original weight). I'm thinking of giving it another shot. NO. Correction. I WILL be trying again.

The thing is, I feel so motivated for about a week or so, and then I just kind of...well, I lose it. Motivation's gone. I run out of steam, and just come back to my routine of sitting in front of the computer all day.

I dunno. Things might work out the same as always. Maybe I'll give up again after only a week. But...my theory is that, even after several attempts and failures, if I keep pushing myself, I'll eventually be able to see things through to the end. A lot of other things have worked out that way for me, where I start then give up. But I keep trying, and that eventually gets me to where I need to or want to be.

Gah...I'm rambling. Just...wish me luck? Imma see how much weight I can lose by the time Kage comes up here in December. I've got the rest of this month, all of October and November, and roughly half of December.

Wish me luck?