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-sigh- ... i love her. I cant type the words or even if i could, i dont have the energy to type it all because i only have one lifetime but its like were.... soulmates. I have help countless people with love issues and although i am not a role model lover myself, she is the mother of my lover, queen of compassion, Lady Lord of love, Angel of all I Love, Empress of My Everything, My deemer of Devotion, the Highness of my heart, and the Goddess of my good nature. Ive seen her at (in my eyes) her worst, put her through her best, and i have with no hesitations the will to be there there at all times, even when death do us part, i will be her guardian angel.

I didnt just throw away 365k and asked Dede to change her name to Mrs Blanket to match Mr Blanket (the name she gave me) because she is a random girl i found in a room. First off, she found me =/ , I not only loved this girl, i wanted to make said love official. She cant be Mrs Blanket with out the same thing that made me Mr Blanket... a wind security blanket. Ive drawn pictures, you're in my journal so you know of my writings, Ive called her and told her stories that appease to her heart.

To love Dede feels as good if not, in fact it is, better than ruling the world. It is like winning a Grammy hearing her say she loves me. Its like listening to my favorite song when I hear how much she cares for me. Its like listening to your favorite headbanger when she tells about her day. Its like waking up to Christmas when i see a new journal entry about me. Its like watching a new movie when i watch the letters run across my eyes as i read her letters. Its like gettin honor roll when she laughs. To love dede is to experience all the good things in life. I could never let this life pass me by.

I can only thank God really because he lead me to her. No one knew about her because i was going through so much and i felt i had to protect her because there was stuff she will never see from me and those things of me are slowly dwindling away. She is changing me into a better person.She just makes me want to do more, do better, and spend every moment like its my last when we both kno we have a long future ahead of us