Today I thought about this for a very long time mostly because, today I lost count of the people who came talking to me about it. This is just a few of the stuff I dealt with today.
(Guy2): "hey man just so you know I thrashed it" What you mean? (Guy): "That girl I was with last night yeah you know." I get man no need to go into detail." (Guy2): Boss look over at the chick I'm about to bang man." "wow not bad that's something how long have you been going out?" (Guy2) "we just met man she completely wants it to, it's like one of those one night things that I do when my girl is out of town." "What?" (Girl ): Hey my boyfriend is going to buy this for me and I'll buy this." "Him? what happen to the guy you was with yesterday?" (Girl):"He had work today, haven't you ever had a girlfriend?" "Nope, your change is $4.95 have a nice day."(Guy3): Hey Tadeo I feel like a 28 year old again, first I spent a night at hooters and that was awesome." (Guy3): I just met this 27 year old and that's why you haven't seen me for a week around here, she is a lot better than my ex man no complaining and and I can give it as good as she can give it. You know what I mean, I'm sure no girl wants to sit there and give without getting anything back." "sigh really, Dude I prefer not to talk about this man." (Guy3) "Come on you know what I mean, you have a girl that you do that for." "Na man, I wouldn't know anything about that." This song was playing on my laptop the during conversation world. (Guy4): oh s**t man I didn't know you flow that....." "oh my, No I am not gay why would you even, you know never mind just buy your stuff man." stare
It's not that I don't want to I just don't know how really I know how to be confident and hang out(I guess), I might put more value on the whole concept more than others. My feeling about love sex and etc is that they are all the same thing,Just love.I don't sleep with someone one and have someone else I don't love someone and love someone else. I can't say that sex should be saved for marriage if you love someone. I can't say that the one thing I would like to do above all else is have sex with a girl. But I can say I would love to protect that person if I found her. I can say if she existed, after a day of work and I was sleeping I would love ta have her fall asleep right next to me and feel the warmth of her hair. I would to love wake up looking into her eyes. All in all, I would just love her. heart
Well that felt a little better. A lonely heart can only deal with so much before breaking, so it's good to talk about some things to relieve a little of the pain. Even if it is just to yourself. I bet no has ever notice the little stuff I put in or at the end of my journal entries, They do have there own problems so I can't expect them to put there life on hold for me and I don't want them to a little long than my usual end.
b.l.Tiger · Tue Sep 29, 2009 @ 10:39am · 0 Comments |