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I received news about my classmate's marriage in few days..
At first, I was really excited because her dream came true, & i'm happy for her.

BUt at the same time, i felt green to her - she's younger than me, but already has a mate for lifetime. How bout me?

When i came to think about this, the next feeling arise - scared. I felt really scared about responsibility that I had to carry on my back. I see that being a couple is worse than being a friend - 24/7 without stop u r being monitored.. Even worse, if i didn't gave out any responses, the couple will gone 'worried' or maybe to say it straight - jealous.

Is not that I'm anti with the coupling, but as I trying to indulge into it, i felt nothing came out like the fairy tale. (That's reality for me)..

I know this mean nothing to others, but,, (maybe I'm the one being over reacting over a small thing)..
After all, love because of human is still a small percentage of life.. sweatdrop