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Johnny broke up with me last night. And he didnt even do it. He sent Grace over. And supposably it was all a prank for him to go out with me. "a taste of my own medicine" I NEVER meant to hurt Johnny. What Johnnys friends don't think about are MY feelings. "Oh, that b***h. she Broke up with you for no reason" MOST REASONS WHY I BREAK UP WITH HIM IS BECAUSE I DON'T LIKE HIM ANYMORE! bUT OH WELL. If he doesn't want me that's not my problem. He's the one that will realize one day that he lost somethin "amazing/great/awesome". And when/if he ecer wants to go back out with me ever agian, I'm not going to. I can find someone better. I'm not sure how I'm going to find someone better....but I will. Brendans right....I gotta stop going after the same guy.
Worse has happen to me. I've had a guy go out with me for a joke [involves Johnny and Aaron] and I've been cheated on. I'm only 14. I shouldn't get so worked up over some guy. I knew we wouldn't last forever. Nothing ever does. Well, some things, yes. But not everything. Just like 2people I know. I know they won't last. She...jusr...no. It won't last. You can tell.
So I don't really like anyone anymore. T.D. I don't like anymore than a friend and Brendan I havn't liked for like a week now. I bet people still think that I like him. Krista's going to hurt him. But I can't trust him that well. I know he'll tell everything to Krista. I know it. And he prob told someone that I liked him when I went out with Johnny a couple weeks ago.....well...maybe not. I'm not sure. I don't talk to him that much.
I called him last night. I almost cried. Brendan thinks that it wasn't a prank and that Johnny really liked me. I still think it was a prank. Tiffy's right. I was right. I've hurt him too many times. He decided it was his turn to hurt. It did hurt. I almost cried. I let the tears come to my eyes. But I didn't let them fall. I'm stonger than that. Many people think that I'm weak. Well, no duh I am. But I've learned how to be strong. After everything I've been through in my life....Yeah. I know worse has happened to people. Like this one girl was crying at the game last night[wich was AwEsOmE!] I was siiting there thinking "Get over it. You'll find someone better. If I can[wich I havent yetXD], you can. Your young. You don't need to be crying so badly'. I mean, I can understand if you were ogoing out with him for like, 2-or more years. But I doubt they have been. She'll get over him and will find someone better. I will. I know I will. [: Or my name isn't Kayla Zane Whisenant.