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"Foreshadowing your life
And the near darkened times.
If you ever had a choice,
You wouldn't live this way.
Wouldn't live with the disdain.
But even after knowing that,
With thinking all this time.
With all the people you hurt,
And how they long for you to die,
That if you had another chance
To face your gruesome sins
If you wouldn't just fall back down
To do it all again.
Because you can't deny the pleasure,
You felt during that time
So now it's time to face your punishment
You deserve for all your wicked crimes."


"A dank and depleted home
Gutted, hollowed-out and alone
To stand back in these halls
To climb forsaken stairs
I drag my hands on black, scorched walls
Climbing the stairs
Walking down these halls in vein
Horrified, the pictures bleed in my mind
I fall
Standing back in this room
This unfamiliar light shines through
I feel the breeze flowing in
These winds are still carrying you
A torn photograph, our shattered remnants
It's been so long, but I'm still living in it
The reflection is broken, but my fragments gleaming through it
I scream"


"With the calling of the lost
That marks the bleeding in the sound
With the pounding of these drums
Vital beats meant to confound
And now we're marching along again
Hoping to fly to clear our sins
With these flames, ways are clarified
We grow our wings, we live to die
10 thousand feet march through grass
10 thousand more to kill en masse"

"Light, then burn
Crash and tear
Break and fade
For every moment I suffered, it's your turn
For every spilled tear, it's time you knew my fear
On the other side, they can't see the fun this way,
Can they?
For just one word, a phrase, a seed is sown
And deviously planted, what will return
Is the one thing you'll earn
With their twisted sense of fun, the seed
Is nourished deep inside
Soaked to the brim, grown in time
And what rises, locked from within
Roots grown deep down, sustained with pain
A tainted plant rising forth
A color so full of shame in these leaves
Stemmed so strong, but what lies inside
Is now coarse"


"Let's go for a drive
A lone ride in the moonless, dead night
Just a silent cruise through the city streets
Rev up the engine, still thinking you can't be beat
But you're just as ignorant as those that you taunt
Just because you're at the top don't mean
That you can't be shot.
So the bullet's flying, where's the fame now?
It's lying with your a**, 6 ft. under the ground."


"I thought you were better
Thought you had changed
Thought you had risen back to your feet
If this is what you call change..
Then change me no more
Return the shattered pieces to me
And mend to me what you tore
And God help me..
Help me feel no more
Help me restore
The damage I brought
The hate that I feel
And every time I fought
Destroy this deceit
My beloved friend..
Bring life to me once again"


"Degenerate age
For poisoned souls
Pathogenic lies spoke
As order sways
To look for a brighter day, another way
But as this light dies
Blackening our lives
We look for the day
That all will see our way
From the fragments of faith
Become a blade
To scourge a bloody path
To rise upon the tainted flood
To rage on our enemies
And infect their blood"


"You took me in and showed me the way
Something to fill the hole and believe
But it was to much for me to keep
To see, to hold so dear like you
It was draining the strength out of me
Every time I see their faces, I feel so alienated
I can't stay
This feeling is so complicated
I just want to runaway
I have nothing to offer
And there's nothing I can give
I have no more faith like you
This is how I choose to live
Your views aren't mine
And my own aren't open to this
With how I see you masquerade
Let me hold onto it a little longer
This ignorance, this bliss
I could never let go
I could never believe
All your words, they fall short on me
I'm trapped, locked so far down below
I can't follow your light
How I shine mine is my own
And for now, I choose to shine alone"


"A twisted picture
A daunting day
Were there really any other ways?
Sitting in this bleak silence
I see the colors fade
Even the light, it seems, has been chased away
A monumental era
A time beckoning of change
You can change your view of the picture
But what remains locked in the frame
Will always stay the same.
There's no way to help the feeling
Nothing to stop what's seeping through
Slow, what will control
Time will never change the meaning for you"