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UGH!!! scream STUPID MEN!!! Right now I hate my bestfriend Jeremy. We've known each other since I was eight and he was seven.When we were ten he told me he really liked me .I told him I still had a crush on my old friend Nathaniel.He more or less accepted it.

As we grew older he would still hit on me, though I never really knew what exactly he was doing until I thought about it years later.He tried to kiss me once and only once, and that didn't really count because he was throwing a tantrum and went into hysterics when I refused to kiss him, and claimed that no one loved him.

But other than that one time, I belive we were nine, he never did anything to show me he loved me.We talked on the phone and he would tell me, "I love you." But he never ever showed me that he did.And I'm not talking him buying me anything at all.No, because you don't have to buy something for someone to let them know you love them.But he never really tried to kiss me, like...in a romantic way, or maybe doing it while I was off gaurd.He never tried to hold my hand, he never tried to hug or hold me.

He never told me in person, "I love you." He never talked about it in person. And then he would contridict his, "I love you's" with , "No.I lied.I never meant it." So what the hell am I supposed to do,when he tells me i love you, and then takes it back!? scream I never really tried to like him that way becase I only wanted to be good friends.

And because my sister didn't like him so much and my father teased me about liking him when it wasn't true.So when we were fourteen, I started thinking...why not? What could be so wrong about maybe liking him.He IS my bestfriend.So I started daydreaming about it and it led to dreaming about kissing, holding hands, keeping things secret, and...sometimes...just a little bit further than that.

Then he did stupid and threatened someone with a knife. My brother to be exact.Though I never saw the actual blade and no one ever found it.So we weren't allowed to see him for a long time.Now...there is a slight chance that we could see him.But it has to be soon because him and his dad are leaving for Missouri really soon.

I've talked to him on the phone and it's been really fun, but my imagination messed with me.I knew to expect that he would move on since I was never there anymore, but it hurt when he told me he had a girl friend, had had other girlfriends, and that he had been getting, "Plenty". He lies all the time and it sounds like he's lieing now, but I can't be sure.

Though he's weirding me out, saying that he thinks he still likes me.I've dropped very very few hints, as to my liking him.He obviously picked them up, but he's weirding me out and I don't like the way he has a girlfriend and asks me if I enjoy turning him on.He needs to tell me if he still likes me and stop beating around the bush.But I won't have him if he has a girl already. anyway....that's it for now. bye.