I am a poet writing about my pain. I am person recovering and trying to gain. I am your daughter who is trying to learn. I am your sister who is starting to turn. I am your friend acting like I am fine. I am a wisher wishing you weren't mine. I am a girl who thinks about suicide. I am a teenager who pushes her feelings aside. I am a student who knows nothing. I am the one asking you to care. I am your best friend hoping you will be there.
Whenever I've been down, Feeling Suicidal and going through a hard time, You have been there for me. You two mean more to me than anything in the world, I know most of the time we're hating each other, letting each other down and breaking the rules but just Know that I love you both from the bottom of my heart, If you were to leave me there would be no end to my depression. You've helped me through so much, cheered me up. Laughed with me, Cried with me, Sung with me and most of all - You've put up with me.
If you ever feel you can't put up with my terrible personality, let me tell you know. I believe in your choices. I will try my best to turn my life and live normally once again, I know I have other friends to be around and I know you do too, So know this now - I love you both so much that by gods name I would probably go homo for the two of you and you know that.
I know I'm really annoying with all my Yaoi and perverted ways and especially my foul moods, and I'm well aware that you probably don't want me to keep saying I want to end my life or I want to be a boy, but know that you guys will always be with me wherever you are and whoever your with.
When I say Im killing myself - I could never leave you.
When I say I want to be a boy - It's probably so I can be with you both even more.
When I say I hate you - I could never mean it.
When I'm alone in my room slitting my wrists - It's because we had that fight.
When I say I love you guys - You have to believe me when I say I mean it.
To Tilly and Kiera,
The best friends a Girl like me could have, Dear god I hope we can be with each other for as long as possible.
iiButtsecks Community Member 
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