Today is day 2 of my worries. The day on which i tell my dad that he is going to be a grandfather yet again. The day that I think about how I am going to pay next months bills and the ones still due this month for that matter. I am a little bummed out at the fact that I did lose my job because of some corporate selfish b***h that thinks nothing of others and has no decency to face whatever harm she causes to others. I still wish I hadn't lost my job, but at the same time there is a very very small part of me that is glad to be away from the deception and pure evilness of what is Vista Verde. Of course I am looking forward to staying home for the holidays, but I am also not looking forward to the boredom and the disputes with my boyfriend to come. You should know that the more you are with your loved one, the more things you find that you dont like about them. Although there isn't much i dont like about my man, but i do get bothered by some things and i tend to blow things out of proportion as all women do at times. I might exaggerate things now that I am a little bit more sensitive to things. I do look forward to being with my kids a little more. I feel that a lot of their behavior issues are due to the fact that there are 3 different people raising them with different rules and different punishments. I know that is not very stable, but my grandmothers only reason for living at this point are my kids. They bring her happiness, but they can get away with murder when she is around. Bret can literally shoot my grandmother on the leg and say he is sorry and she would say something like "It's ok. He didnt know what he was doing. He is only a child" meanwhile the freaking rest of the world would believe my child to be a psycho. Again, losing my job has its ups and downs. I do need a break from all the stress and hatred that ran through my veins while i was working during my ex-boss' maternity leave. At any rate, I am a little happy that Christmas is around the corner. I think this will be the best one my kids have ever had. I was able to get a lot of things they wanted with the exception of some Lego Batman items. They are super hard to find and super expensive to boot. I also plan to tell the in-laws about our little bundle of joy. That is going to be interesting to see how they feel about their son being a father. I shall have to deliberate on this tomorrow seeing as I am about to retire for the night.
...princess that wants more sweet potato pie...
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 princess peachey · Fri Nov 27, 2009 @ 05:48am · 0 Comments |
