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Would you shave your head if a family member asked you to because they had cancer?
Absoultly. If my mom or my sisters had to go through that Id do it in a heartbeat. I only don't include my dad in that just because it's not like he has a ton of hair to lose. Lol.

What would you do if the doctor told you that you were pregnant?
I'd be in shock. I know it's no seceret that all I want is to be a mommy, but I'm not ready for that dream till 10 years down the road. I'd most likely cry and freak the hell out. To be honest the first people I'd prolly tell would be Amy and Holly. I don't know if I could handle telling anybody else first.

Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
Actually they didn't. She didn't even try to apologize. Even after a year or so of getting nothing but silence from her she called me and said she wanted to meet up and talk. The bottom line I got out of her from the conversation we had was "I don't really give a s**t about you, I don't care about what happened between us, I'm not even gonna try to talk it out, BUT I miss hanging out with your boyfriend Amanda! So I hope we can hang out now that we didn't fix anything so I can chill with Thomas." I'm still not over it. I keep thinking maybe I should go back and talk to her, but after so many years...is there a point?

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Yes, with anyone but Thomas. He always finds the holes in my mask.

Are you wasting your time on someone?
I've learned to not waste time on people. It always leaves you with regrets.

Explain the lasy time you threw up:
I drank too much.

Last thing that made you cry:
Losing my ring again.

Do you have a bad temper?
I'm a Taurus. I have a horrible temper, but only when it's invoked.

Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
Yes.

How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?
3. My great grandpa & great grandma Day, and my great grandma Lois.

How often do you think about suicide?
Not as often as I did when I was younger. Now it's only when I really ******** up.

What is your deepest fear?
Being unloved.

Do you REALLY love all your family?
Yes. With no doubt.

What do you want to believe in?
That friends are forever.

Do you have a secret crush on someone?
Haha, no.

Are you proud of who you are?
Competely. I've never been proud tryin to be anyone else.

Do you feel alone even in crowded rooms?
No, not really. But depressed or singled out I do.

What is the worst thing a person could do to you and still be forgiven?
Break my spirit.

You're dying in 10 seconds, what are your last words to your best friend?
I love you, I want you to tell everyone how much I loved them and cared. I always cared.

...to your worst enemy?
I'm sorry. Just tell my family I love them, please.

Do you care if people hate you?
I care what people think about me. But if you hate me, there's no point.

Freedom or safety?
Freedom, always.

Think of a random person, and give them a message here, no names:
I hope you know I feel terrible, but I'm not sorry at all. You treated me like a child or a pet. We were great friends but never anything more. I was so dumb and young, and I'm pretty sure if you think back as well you'd say the same thing. I'd like to thank you for being by my side when I needed it growing up and for really being a good friend to me. I just wish I had looked out for myself more and didn't feel like I owed you anything. Because I never did. I just felt (for some dumb reason) responsible for you. Since your mom and dad obviously couldn't do s**t for you I felt like I was the only one who would. And even though that may be true, I should have made you learn to fix your life for yourself. Not tried to do it for you.

Has a song ever made you cry?
Yes!! "He Stopped Loving Her Today" by George Jones

A book ever made you cry?
Many, the first to make me cry was "Where the Red Fern Grows".

Is the world crumbling to pieces?
I dono.

Name on moment where you couldn't control your rage:
Anytime I was from the age of 11-17 and was in a fight with daddy.

Name one moment where you sincerely wanted to just die:
There've been a few.

For the last one, just say anything you want, anything at all:
Does anyone read these things? Or is it just another pointless way of entertaining myself?