My mind feels so numb from this life of mine. Everything I do feels like a repetition and a cycle of the same thing over and over and over. I feel like when I'm going somewhere, I'm really going nowhere. It feels like this reality is fake, a dream or a thought... like this is all fake. When I walk around, I'm completely dazed out. It feels like a dream, my whole life... a fake pathetic dream. Everything I do, I feel like I'm doing it for no pointless reason. Nothing feels real, I even get this numbness in my body every once in a while... I'll feel my whole body and it's like someone else is touching it, like it's not even my own body... I can't get these feelings to go away and I feel like it's affecting my whole life. My grades in school are horrible because I see no point in school or learning, my social life is nonexistent because sometimes, I even forget I'm here... I'm so trapped in my thoughts I forget this is real (unless if it really isn't, if this was actually fake...). My life isn't any bit of positive-ness... sometimes I just wish I could sleep forever, it's so much more peaceful that way. I know I need help, I just don't see the point in wasting my time to get any. My life is worthless and I'm trapped with these horrid thoughts. I'm mind-numb and it's one of the worst things anyone could experience...
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