3:36AM. And my heart pours out to the public. Dosen't that bring back memories.
It's funny. Even after all these years, it seems the only way I can stop my hurting heart is this place.
Yes. Im in pain again...and the thing is. Even though I have been miserable, my heart never ached. I was just depressed and tired, never in pain.
But. But that. Today, my- I don't know how to really express myself. Perhaps im being stupid or whatnot. Maybe it's PMS. ._. That's always a possiblity.
...or maybe it's because I care too much at this moment. :/ A promise was broken today and it broke my heart...and I really needed that promise too.
*Pauses* I may be overexaggeraing the situation, but this is how I felt. You know, im staring to waffle again. Or rather, did I ever stop? Eh, I don't think I did.
Sadly, when I was with him, I never was able to express myself fully. Never. But at this moment, I am starting to feel myself become numb completely. I fear...well. No. I don't fear it anymore. Rather just have a feeling there will be a point where I will no longer have any care for myself. In such a way that it dosen't matter how my future ends up being. Just as long as it is lived... But. As long as I continute to smile with senserity. Everyone will be fine. And that's what matters, right?
...I just feel like I can't be helped anymore. So. Thanks for trying...
I guess I intend to bury this kind of feeling again...lets just hope Tucker dosen't get ahold of my face anymore. Lets hope that I can keep it all in.
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