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why?
why does the smallest thing make me depressed,
why does no matter how I try not to be depressed I end up being depressed,
why does my heart always feel like it's breaking?

who must I ask to get the answer,
what must I do to get rid of this sorrow?

why do I always stress out my lover when I don't want to,
why do I always hurt her when I'm depressed,
why do I hurt myself when I'm alone and no one is watching?

who must I ask to get the answer,
what must I do to get rid of this heart ache?

why do I always ******** up when I want things to last,
why do things I love seem to slowly decay or run from me?
why do I feel that I'm always a monster or a freak?

who must I ask to get the answer,
what must I do to be loved and not hated?

why do I have so many enemies when all I want is peace,
why does everyone seem to not want to be around me,
why does the name loveless haunt me as if a chocker around my neck?

who must I ask to get the answer,
what must I do to stop myself when I don't even have control over my emotions?

why do I want to kill myself so bad,
why haven't I yet,
why don't I have the courage to just do it?

who must I ask to get the answers,
what is wrong with me?

why does every day seem like an endless torment with out someone to hold or to hold me,
why do I ask so many answers,
why do I feel useless no matter what?

I love her and she loves me, yet she always goes away instead of just helping me, making my depression even worse to the point where I just want to break my window, grab a piece of glass, cut myself, write how much I love her in blood, take a picture of it and upload it to her, then stab myself in the chest so that she can stop feeling hurt and I can finally stop feeling so much pain from being alone, form feeling that I'm useless, from feeling loveless.





 
 
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