I never wanted things to be this way, and yet when you have the gun pointed at me I feel better this way. Better because I'm not the hero, you see that don't you, I see it too but only glimpses of it- of the truth. I really want to be that, I wanted to be that for you, your hero. You didn't need a hero but you didn't need what I was, you didn't need what I did either. Things seem so real to me when I see you ever since then, not just the betrayal because that wasn't it, things weren't the same since you first left. It was stupid to think things would be perfectly the same after year not seeing you since our break-up? I don't know what to call it, but after Chloe...after her things weren't the same. What is it in me that can't admit it? I never told you and you deserved to know, not to get treated the way you did. I was a hypocrite and I let myself be that because I was weak, I couldn't just /tell/ you. Then I felt I had to fix things, but like we were getting further apart. I knew Lazarevic isn't a nice man but I didn't know...I didn't know. Me, it's all me it's always been me. I could save everyone, I've saved everyone I could, and I condemned you. Along the way I wish I could have stopped it. I know you, I know you aren't bad. If I'm not a hero you definitely aren't a villain.
 Zi Kimizuru · Fri Jan 01, 2010 @ 07:51am · 0 Comments |
