Life is rough. And then ya die. thats what they tell me. I find it hard to have long term goals when we all return to nothing anyway. and the endless possibilties of this lucid life are far to unnerving to make change my mind about it.
I get pretty emo during holiday seasons. nothing goes right. but its a long year and at least some things change. I'm in my second semster of collage so thats a plus. i am at least trying to do something with my life. but its a looooong road. still no job. but im scraping by. I have a gf now =]. after some time sorting through some stuff were finally going out. im actually excited about this. gfs are nice to have but im never really more then head over heels for the idea. but the girl i have now is amazingly nice and thoughtful. she sympathizes with me and has patience. shes so nice to everyone and i respect that in her. i care for her some much. im actually overwhelmed with feeligns for her. i cant help but tell her how much i love her all the time. which is weird for me. ive never been like that ever. everrrrrr. shes so beautiful to i could stare at her and just let those feeling rush over me and not think twice about it. i really am looking forward to how this works out between us. shes my last ditch effort to be a good person i think. if i didnt have her id just not give 2 ******** about anything and be mean. but her niceness rubs off on me and personally i dont mind a bit =]. as far as the rest of life goes its pretty stagnant still. im trudging though best i can. i still dont philosophize much which frustrates me. but all for a different time i guess. ill stick to sleeping in and vid games lol. and the ride goes on...
 Magickhu · Sun Jan 24, 2010 @ 08:39am · 1 Comments |
