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I am not in a good mood...
In fact, I'm in a horrid mood.
These thoughts that buzz around in my skull could possibly drive me mad.
They invade my sleep, and confuse my dreams.
Til' I can no longer separate truth from reality.

Lately I have been wondering what it is others say about me behind my back, if I'm even worth mentioning at all.
To hell with those who say things in which they know nothing about.
The one's spreading lies and rumors are always the one's who know the least.
Or maybe it is I who knows the least, I who places my trust in people who are naught but mere strangers.
Perhaps I should be divulging less information about myself, saying less, doing less.
But still they would talk, they would call me withdrawn and anti-social.
There's just no pleasing anyone.

There are few anymore to whom I can give any trust to.
Of course there will be at the top of my list, my boyfriend, in which I have placed my absolute trust.
Most people would call me a fool for doing so, but they don't know me,and they don't know him.
He means more to me than any one else in this world.
The only person I trust more than him, is myself.
And I don't even know if I can trust myself anymore.

Perhaps I'm just over thinking things.