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I have realized recently that most people look for a way to complete them selves. They go from person to person to complete what they are missing because they are lonely. I have experienced this...and it has taken a great amount of heartache for me to realize that if the right person is meant to come along then they will but like most everyone says probably when we least expect it. We're all a bit lonely and we all need people to be around, that is a natural feeling inside of us all but, no one can complete us, only we can do that our selves. For some doing this is difficult, some take a completely different path because they don't know how to handle the obstacle that come at them so they just assume that life is out to get them but in reality life is just teaching us the makings to be who we are inside to make us better people. This can go with anything in life because life teaches many different lessons even if we may not notice it. With each passing time life brings a new lesson and we take our own time completing that lesson until we learn something from it. Weather or not that this is our fate is unknown..all I know is that it is what has happened with me and I can only speak from my experience.

Change can be so constant that you don't realize there is a change until there is one. You can't see it coming at you because its supposed to be unexpected. I know I have been a clingy person and people tend to think I am sad but over this past summer I have noticed a change within my self that I have now come to realize as a inner completion coming ever closer. My friend, Flidias always says that I was under a spiritual transformation in life from the time I was born to now. I believe this to be a fact because of my experiences and the way I have grown from the things life has brought to me and changed me making me know my self better as a person and not just being empty all the time about never knowing what my flaws are or what my strengths are or my fears or wishes. Though some of them are unclear..I still strive on in the world.

I know that I have my moments when I am depressed and it seems like I am lonely..but at times its not because of that its because of something else that I haven't quite figured out yet. It is either because I feel off other people or because I am lonely, one of the two. I have always been intuitive about certain peoples emotions depending on my closeness with them or the energy I sense from them. I think this balances out the zen that is usually filling my head.

Not only has all of this happened to me..but I have also realized that I have emotions I didn't know I had, some more then others but I realize what to say and how to say it most the time with out just bursting out and saying something stupid.

In conclusion, you have to complete your self, you cannot let others try to do it for you, life will just keep sending you signs to drive you to a different direction, it all depends on you with how you take that push.