You know what's funny? Feelings. People don't seem to realize you have any, but then expect you to acknowledge theirs. ******** feelings.
I've become extremely blunt and short tempered. I have no sense of humor(a slight sense of cynism and sarcasm, but I don't think that counts). I don't like people as a general rule, least of all the people that I once loved.
If I could start over, I would have just taken the chance and stayed in China and married Mao. Maybe then, grandma would have lived longer, Lili wouldn't have died when she did, and a variety of other people and things would never have entered my life or happened.
I am feeling very empty right now, but I am afraid to be filled. At least when you're empty, you're empty. All that's left is to break the body. But when you have something to lose...I haven't had or found anything worth the pain yet.
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