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You ever get the feeling that this world we live in is one big series of unfortunate hit and misses ?
I am starting to feel that way more and more every day. Just when I thought- I could poke my head out from the burrow I have been living in - i needed to ask myself- what is it I truly want in life? Who are the people that really matter, and furthermore who the hell am I ?
I am not even sure on that last one--But I hope like hell I am better than who I was and that this racing in my heart would stop and maybe someway some how I can feel something more than this emptiness of void in my heart. Why then does it matter so much when someone says good bye if I really do not care?
I can tell you why--its because I do feel- and truly care--but what difference does it make to throw a fit and beg and plead when all it revels is weakness?
I am beyond that -- I think. So is it okay if I lie my head in your lap and be weak in your company? I can't even continue- I feel useless and void and I just need your lap and my gut wrenching sobs to be spilled while you just say nothing. This way I know--it will be alright and in the morning I can start again.
New refreshed and strengthened. Over and over again.
 Prufalas Devoncroix · Fri Mar 19, 2010 @ 02:49am · 0 Comments |
