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I lied in the sand, and looked up at night starry sky, my blood red eyes emotionless.
My job was done.
I'd saved everybody, and i turned out to be a good person, and didn't kill all of light.
Tears came to my eyes of how proud i was of myself, but then i knew since my job was done, and darkness wouldn't be taking over for a long time, I was going to disappear for a temporary amount of time.
My cold dead heart felt as if it were beating, or possibly crying itself.
"Mom!" Nevaeh yelled my name.
I heard her footsteps run toward me, and i saw her beautiful face above me, she was sober, concerned.
"What's wrong, nev?" I asked, putting my hand on her warm cheek.
"What's happening to you?" her tears fell upon my face, making me flinch a little.
"Nothing really, i'm just fading away until darkness tries to take over again. That won't be so long though. No matter what happens, darkness awaits its next move. So i have to go away for a while until it does. You see Nevaeh," I looked at her with my soft gentle look.
"I'll never go away. Ever. It may seem so, but no matter what, i will come back to save light. Who knows, i might come back the same, or differently. I could come back as an old woman! But you might never know." I laughed.
Nevaeh started to cry, and held my hand tight.
Her tears were more rapid now, dampening my face.
"Don't cry, Nevaeh, I'll be back i promise." I took her hands, and smiled with tears in my eyes.
I didn't want to go. I wanted to stay. I loved the life i had, and It hurt to leave it.
Thoughts flushed through my head and the next thing i knew, everything was turning white.
"I love you, Nevaeh, and everyone else. Please let everyone know what happened." I said with a sober tone.
Nevaeh was quiet and her tears stopped.
"You're not leaving mom... Never." She said.
I smiled one last time, until i felt completely nothing, the dampness of Nevaeh's tears went away, i couldn't feel her hand.
My heart exploded with sadness, i couldn't tell if i was crying or not, but I felt like screaming.

Nevaeh....Don't ever forget me, even in the darkest times, i want you to remember me. Don't let darkness ever take you over. Your so pure.... I don't want you to change ever........

I thought that over and over again.
My heart said it, but my mind didn't function.

The last thing i ever remember was my family, and how they all smiled when they all saw me.

Ximena Lotus~~~ Out