Well it really has been a while since ive written a journal Entry.
I really dont have a different motive for making an entry, so i gues ill just drabble on about my life as it is today.
My life as a Freshman Varsity 3rd Basemen is as boring a routine as ever. My life seems to be getting more zombie-like and robotic as each and everyday passes. I think if i stand still, i can feel myself slowly aging. The stress of everyday life along with school, grades, and other complicated things is slowing me and slowly killing me. Im as Unconfident as ever, and it shows. To top it all off i dont know myself anymore. Things are changing with me and i just wish i Knew who i was and what my purpose in life is. Older people would tell me this is a small and insignificant part of my long life and i should cherish the chance to learn because i wont be able to do it over. Well thats completely bullshit. Afterall, when was the last time they were in school? For my parents, it has been a good 23 years.... IDEK if they can comprehend the stress and pressure of everyday life. But god knows ill never be able to tell them that. And its not only school with my parents, they think they're SO superior and smart. Well lemme tell you they couldnt help with my fifth grade homework, and they sure as hell cant help with my Geometry and Chemistry... I swear, sometimes i dont know what keeps me waking up each morning. IDEK Anymore... God man. I Either need a serious change in my life or i need something worth working for... Something or someone.
 PrInCeSs_Le_DaRk · Wed Apr 14, 2010 @ 03:55am · 0 Comments |
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