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May 14 2010
I created this cosplay. I spent alot of time making this account the way it looks now. In some ways I still am making changes to it. One time I thought I was banned from gaia. I was so mad that I told everyone close to me and they seemed like they could careless or they dont even listen. Luckily, My account was not banned. My account cost me 2.5M gold. You know how hard it is to get that kind of gold and to think of making something you spent a great deal of effort and time on to find it gone but no one cared really. It was a joke because its "captainamerica", no one important. It may not have been important to any of them but they could have at least respected me in my time of sadness. No one will probably ever know the impact Captain America has on me. When I first saw him on Spider-Man(90's) I fell in love with him. He was the voice for those who had no voice. Having no father in my life the only male masculine figure I looked up to was the guy in the red, white and blue. I didnt enjoy my childhood because I had to pick up the role of father figure. I had 1 brother and 4 sisters. I was the eldest so alot of responsibility was laid on me. Captain America comics were my escape from the world. sometimes I wish I could read them more often than I do.

I like to think I do a good job at portraying Captain America. I'm a pacifist, I dont pick fights, I'm respectful and I rarely use hurtful words. Dont think because you say something about my efforts and my avatar they go unnoticed. When people say "I hate Captain America" or "Batman can beat him" or "Capt. Sucks" I want to give them a retort "And you think you are better? You suck" but because I don the CaptainAmerica avatar I have to react like him even if I dont feel like he should. He would say "everyone is entitled to their opinion" and "they have the freedom of speech". Recently someone commented on my post saying you hijacked a post and your signature is way too big. No one else complains. So I gave her a response saying I was in the right post area and I was not hijacking and she can simply block my image even my avatar. She PMs me rules as if I didnt understand her. She then said "if captain america followed the rules he wouldnt be so rude". She deserved any rude undertones I gave her in the forum. I tried to pm her back she put her pm and comments on private. She hide behind the pm like a coward. I told my gf about this...she said "nice?" and my response to her was I should be used to girls "busting my balls about captain america".
I thought Signatures are a way to express freedom of speech. I like the signature, dont like it block it. dont like my colors block me. I stand for America, I'm a patriot and I will not have my rights pitted against me. I will not have my rights denied. I know what it means to be a patriot. Do you?


I dont mean any of the mean things I posted here...I was mad and I tend to rant and whatnot. I'm going to play some youtube videos with music thats uplifting...I dont feel too hot anymore.