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Kitty knows how I feel, but I wish to know how she feels. I know that she says that she'll tell me when she knows, but I don't think that she will. I thought that as long as she doesn't let me know, I'll never rest peacefully. I thought about asking her again, I knew that it was unneeded pressure, but I wanted to know.

But then I thought for a moment. I realized that I was being selfish, and I wanted to push things. But that's wrong, I wouldn't do that to kitty, or anyone. It really doesn't matter how she feels, as long as we're friends, and hanging out.

I already asked kitty if it was okay to ask her out in a year. It has been a few months since then, so I will wait till that day to ask her out on a proper date. If by then, she decides to date another guy, or turns me down, I'll know how she feels about me. I just need to wait, just a bit longer. I can do this.

On a side note, I have just taken down my Zoosk account. I realized today that I don't need it. Even though I had a couple of interested girls, I was not interested in them. I can't rush things, I need to take things slow. At least for my own sake. I'll just draw a lot to keep my mind bust. College is starting soon again, so I need to keep sharp.