Nothing is worse than feeling powerless.
All you want to do is take all of their pain away, to hold them close and comfort them no matter what; to tell them that as long as you're around, you'll tear out the eyeballs of whoever decides to hurt them.
But sometimes you can't. Sometimes they don't want the protection or love- they shrug it off and put on a smile... And that's when it hurts most of all, because by holding everything back they're slowly killing themselves... And we have to watch.
Then we restrain our feelings just for them, because they don't want to acknowledge that anything's changed or gone wrong. Helping them maintain their ridiculous facade is the only way you can be there, and knowing that you're promoting their self-destruction tears you apart.
So what do we do? We hold out, hope that both of our feelings will just melt away and get better- hope that one of us will just open up and burn the mask, and even though the long road of waiting might be hard, we literally "grin and bear it"...
Because love is always worth waiting for. <3
riverofcausality · Mon Jun 14, 2010 @ 02:02pm · 0 Comments |