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It's about time that i ask myself what makes me happy. I had to questioned what and who i loved and i finally got the answer. I learned that the only person that you can trust with everything is yourself and only yourself. I loved him so bad that i wanted to be with them and risk almost everything. I'm glad i didn't because i didn't need a person like that in my life. There is a beat in my head that tells me no matter what i will forgive them all for what they have done you me. So what i want to say is thank you for doing all those favors, giving me care, loving me, trusting me with your life, and giving me pain. Without those people i wouldn't know how it feels to just let go. I also want to say is that i forgive you for all the pain you gave me. I learned from those mistakes and no matter what i still love you even though i may not show it i want you to know. Today i reconnected with my friend named Jesus and i haven't talked to him in five whole years. My birthday is in three days and for today and now on i promise to make thank you cards and forgive people for what they have done for me and what they have done to me. I know its hard to let go because with all that pain you know you still remember something good. All those good times i had with him are in the past and the past is the past. You may not be there for me now but fore whatever reason you may need me i will be there for you. It pains me to see me without you when i thought we were going to last forever. I'm sorry that I may be mad at the time but i'm human. The thing is that if anyone needs me for whatever reason i am here and will do anything to make you happy. I will surely try to make all the people happy along with myself/

<3 -Leslie Velasco