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I felt the pain of dying, when he told me; we should just be friends.

I would have taken a bullet for him. I love he to the end.

He was what I wanted, but yet he didn't want me.

Now I see, that living for him was not where I should have been.

He had me like a puppet, but he didn't know how to work the strings.

He had me like a puppy dog. Running to him when he called my name.

Insane, crazy stupid a*****e I was. What was wrong with my brain?

I cried for him. Felt low for him. I punch a hole in the wall with my fist for him.

He treated me like a mutt, when I treated him like a queen.

So mean, so nasty. I saw him on the other side. Why would I let myself fall to that?!

Too weak inside? Too loving inside? Too willing to lose my mind.

I tried to make him mine.

Forever!

******** you! Yes I tried, why I don’t know.
But I tried.

I hate to loose, everyone wants to win.

I thought my happiness was him.

But I was so wrong. My mind lied to me. Let it be?

In the end he was just a waste of my time.

I try not to let myself get too crazy

But every time I look for happiness it seems to slip away, Run away or fade away.

As for me, I am still here.

I will push on to the end. Until I feel alive again.

Numbers still go on
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