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crying Ugh. got really upset today becuase my sis wouldn't share her colored pencils with me which seems rediculous i know why would get so upset about it but it really wasn't about it was about the fact that i asked her if i could use them one night and she said no because it was to dark and i'd lose them,so i thought if i asked earlier today she'd let me use them becuase it wasn't dark so i shouldn't of lost them but she still said no even though i said i'd be very careful with them and she said there are to many and you will lose them trust me i know i have lost them sad .So i asked if i could use her smaller set and she said no but i realized now that she probably thought i was still talking about the other one but she said i could use this other one which sucks and she says its just as good as the other ones if it was so good she would use them to but she doesn't cause she knows that there not as good.Also i got upset because when i was upset about the pencils i thought about all the crud i've been keeping inside of me when my sisters say somthing i don't agree with neutral but i don't say anything because i dont like seeig them angry or upset, and because i don't like fighting with them because i love them so much and i feel like they don't care if they upset me to the point were i barely want to hang out with them or were i want to go in my room and be alone to sometimes cry cry .It just got the point were i had to tell somone so i told my mom because i couldn't talk to my litle sis about this i didn't want her to tell my sisters but she did sad ,why i didn't want her to because then i feel they just think i told on them some how or betrayed them and i hate that feeling and i also hate when my sisters make me feel stupid cry .So if you read this and think i'm a big cry baby please keep it to your self. cry Bye for now.
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