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BUZZZZZ!!!
"MGuH..." i roll over to grab my phone. The screen is ablaze with text messages from Alexa. "AWNSER U b***h!!!" was her good mourning message. "Its 2 am!" it was stupid to put that in there but my brain always forgot when i am barley awake. "DUDE! GET OVER HERE!!! or ill NEVER let u barrow my yaoi!!! >=D"

b***h.

I got up and dressed im blue jeans and my blue Paramore t-shirt. I grabbed my keys and drove to her decrepit Victorian house. I open the door and after one step she jumped at me. "ALICE!" she grabbed me and pulled me to the living room with so many candels burning it looked like a sean from a porn movie. "I DID IT AGAIN!!!" i looked over to see a very happy unconscious emo boy half naked on the couch. I took a long breath and sighed. "Alexa you need to take care of this yourself." i started to turn but then i realized what she meant. "You didnt...?" she sniffled. "I almost did but i was so CLOSE!" she looked so shaken i took care of it.

"Thanks Alice." she handed me a new yaoi. "No im ok." and i went home. I looked at me phone to see i had an hour to sleep tell i had to get up. "s**t, stupid vampiry" and at six my phone buzzed and rang with all its might to get me up from my uneasy sleep.

I put on my black skinny jeans, knee high combat boots over, my black Insane Clown Posse t-shirt with the riddler on it...it went down to my knees. I put on my black and silver Pea-coat with my silk black scarf over my nose to my chin. "I hate the cold." i shivered a like an ice cube. My make up was plain black but in a style of think black lines that went around my eyes to resemble a cat.



Why cant sleep come? i was restless after my last dream. I had seen a fierce looking girl with long waves of hair but when i had seen her my black hearts pounded in my ribs. I growled for her. I got up to look out to window the trees swayed in the wind from my lonely yard. I went and took a shower. I had step out to see the shadow move across the floor. "Did you find her?" in my brain it spoke the words "No...Demo" was the cold whisper. I sighed. Damn where is this girl i saw? As i was dressing i kept thinking about her her long blond hair. The sun was almost at the time for me to leave. My shadow became me and we went through the shadows to High School. I REALLY didn't want to be here but the emotions they admit from there souls i had to eat.

As i passed i felt the juice fuel me. I walked passed a window and looked at my reflection. I saw a boy with a firm jaw and shoulder length strait deep dark brown hair even in the sun it seemed black. Light brown eyes and a strait nose. Some what thick eyebrows. Tall with some muscles. I wore a plain gray t-shirt with blue jeans. I had on some boots.

My eyes darted from faces unseen before and familiar faces of my kin. I saw a flash of long silk blond waves to see someone dodged and weave so gracefully through the crowds a didn't realize i had fallowed. She moved on her toes. I had to stop myself before i got swept by her. What am i doing? i stopped and watched as her move like a breeze through the crowd. I wanted to cry i wanted to fallow her so badly. I went to my first class of the year. Geography. This is going to be a FUN year.


I walked into english. I studied the group. I sighed at the fact they were a pathetic bunch. There was a pixie with layered red hair. I went and sat in the corner with the window. I was day dreaming as i stared at the life outside, then, as i was staring at a bird jumping from branch to branch, i felt the hairs on my arm stand up. There was a thick, dark, feeling oozing from a guy across the room. I look over with out moving any other mussels. He was like marble sitting there but surprise was there in his eyes.



I looked back at the bird but my senses were all over him. He kept an eye on me for the whole class period but never looked at me again. I walked out of class and i was pulled off to a wall. "Who are you?" i met a pair of coffe colored eyes. They went on forever i almost got lost in them. "Excuse me?" i saw his eyes look right into mine. "I said who are you." i straitened my spine and say with my diaphragm. "I am Alice Yama Princess of the Underworld. I know what you are." his face was strait but his eyes sparked with surprise. "And what is that?" he leaned in with a sly grin. "A demon." I didn't falter."

His grin went to slow, reaching his eyes. His lips went to my ear. "You have no idea." and he was gone. I felt my eyes go to fire. I left after that class, which was fifth, and went to the woods.


She walked with a sway to the woods. She moved with the woods in rhythm. Its heart beat in tune with hers. She stopped a big oak tree. She sat in a nook in the roots and slept. My body was pulled to go and hold her. As the sun set her skin glowed and the rays of it last moments hit her smooth skin. Her eyes open to reveal two icy blue green eyes surrounded by thick black lines to give them a feline twist.

She looked so sad, lonely, empty. I almost got up to go to her. She looked so reluctant to get up but she had. She pulled back the sleeve of her coat to reveal a bracelet that had wolfs running and chasing each other but the thing that made it so unique is that they were made out of black crystals. She touched one and said "Ookami." and two HUGE black wolfs with blood red eyes appeared. "Yes my princess?" they bowed there heads. Wow she wasn't kidding.

"Tell father i'll be hunting more. If i don't tell him he get's pissie." she seemed annoyed by that simple thing. "As you wish." the growled and were off. She pulled down the collar of her t-shirt to reveal a seal. It was a seal of a disease that was so rare i had never seen one besides in books. My heart flew to her. That disease was given to the ones of the living but it turns your soul to one of the dead. She traced it with her fingers and suddenly she held out her arm and a scythe shot from her sleeve. It gleamed darkly in the setting sun.

It had a simple design. There was a long blade with a slight curve with a littler one sticking from behind it. The staff part designs on it of spirits of deaths from all over the world carved in deep violet. It had a dagger tip and the end of the staff part and it was like her wolf bracelets, pure black crystal. The scythe seemed so intimadating but yet it had such a knowing air. Like a black, poison tipped, rose.

She was like a rose herself, a lovely pink one. A sad one though like the one in Beauty and the Beast were its all alone in that glass, slowly withering away. She jumped like a flash of lighting. She went to go and reap souls for the under wold. I stayed there and listened to the earth she seemed to love so much. My arms aced to hold her. My heart pulsed hard to hear her voice. My eyes stung to cry for her not being able to have her essence near mine. My very being was shaken' by this one girl.

Who knew A demon Prince could fall so hard for just one girl.


I entered my home. My body wanted to be in the world of skulls and bones. I had made this home with my hands. I had put in the skulls of the departed but it still wasn't the same. My soul would only be satisfied by the screams of the trapped souls with in them. I changed into a cami top and my long pajama pants. I went to the bath room and looked in the mirror. You could see the seal for the curse. I was born with it when i lived in the time of the witch trials. They had seen the mark at birth and had tried ti kill me with a knife but a reaper, sinigami, what ever u want had came in and took me from there clutches. He had said in a booming, gloomy, voice "This is the daughter of the departed. The Princess of the Dead." and he took me to the underworld. I was forever raised by Hades and his bride. She was like a wicked step mother. I really didn't like her.


My senses were on her as she moved through her home. I wanted to be near her so badly. She finally laid down to sleep. When her breathing went into a rhythm i went into her house and crawled into her bed and slept next her. She was warm as i wrapped my arms around her to hold her. Suddenly her arms were around me. My skin nearly jumped off me. I looked at her to see the fullness of amusement of her sea blue, green eyes. "Hello Mr. Demon." "Mr. Demon?" no one has ever DARED to call me that. "Yeah! Mr.Demon! i dont know your name so it was the best i could do." she looked up at me with these bright, crystal clear eyes. They were like little pools of liquid diamonds they were that beautiful.

I rolled her over and laid my ears to her chest. I heard her heart pound in her ribs. "What the...?!" it pounded harder as she thought of what could happen. "I never knew someone who had died hearts still beats." i loved the sound. Like a drum in her chest. My head had a comfy place to lay. "Uh..." after a minute she wrapped her arms around my shoulders. We laid there like that tell sun rise.


I woke up at sun set the next day. I see him laying on my chest like a man made out of marble. Then i realized he was right on my boobs. If this was an anime i would of had a vein. I threw him off of the bed and he landed like a cat. "Whoa what?!" he looked at me with worried eyes. "Why the hell were u on my chest!?" i had NEVER been that close contact with ANYONE! i was panicking. "Calm down." i filched from his touch. He looked at me such eyes that spun with questions and worries. "Please go." he looked at me one last time but i hung my head so he couldn't see my eyes that were brimmed with tears. As i heard the door close i feel to the floor. Memories of my past lives flooded back. I wanted to cry but i refused to cry. Not now.

I heard a knock at the door. "ALICE!" she looked at me hard. "Why were you crying?" she grabbed my arm and led me to the living room. "I had let a man sleep with me, BUT NOT SEX! Just sleep." i shook from the ghost of his warmth. "Your not used to being close to the opposite sex like that." she new of my past because she was there. She was assigned to be my guardian but we ended up being the closets friends through the centuries. She knew i had been used for sex in my past lives. Rape, whoring, sold for nights on end for men who couldn't get there own women. I've been abused by man far too many times. I have never been touched out of love instead out of lust.



I sighed in the cold cill of the night. Why did she react like that? "I can answer that." i turn to see a vampiry leaning on her shoulder on a building in the shadows. She stepped out to show her self. She looked like a fairy but lust hung on her like it was apart of her. Her face was round yet sharp. She had cut short fire red hair that was cut on her jawline. It was strait like a red curtain on her face. She wore a jacket that hugged her just right to show her body off right. Concealed yet revealed her boobs just right. She wore black skinny jeans with real metal studded belt with real leather. Combat boots to seal the deal. Her eyes glowed in the night like two Lanterns of green light. "How'd you do it?" a Texas ancient. "Do what?" her eyes went to feral slits. "Get so close to Alice like that with out you being reaped?" she took a long predatory stride to me.

The secret to vampiry's is that the vampires were demons so horrible looking that it was hard to hunt. They mated with the faerie's, who looked like humans but had such special features they were like gods to the humans, to look but look human through out there lives. The demon features toned down the god like features to a hint. "Close?" the anger turned to black fire around her telling me her that she was a POWERFUL demon. "I've guarded Alice for centuries and NO ONE has been so close to her and walked away with there soul still in tacked." she paused and looked at me up and down and step again, "why you?" she wondered.

She was suddenly gone. I was even scared of this demon. She was older than i was and far stronger. A note floated from no where and i snatched it from the air.

Alice is a girl who's life was full of a man's touch but not of free will. She a fragile soul after too much ex poser to life.
I hope you will save her from that in which that fates have cursed upon her.
~Alexa Shade


This person scares me.

I was reading the note when the meaning hit me as as i walked the black streets. She was forced to have sex. Raped. Sold. My eyes wanted to cry but even if a demon had a human body we can not shed tears.


I was in my back yard. The grass grew deep green. A few trees here and there, but why i loved the house the most was the fact was you could see so many stars it was like looking through a microscope. "Traitor." Alexa stood a few feet behind a tree. "I had to." was her pathetic response. "No one can force you to do anything. You know i could never be mad at you for anything." its true she was the only thing by my side no matter what. My mind wondered to the first time we met.


Late 1600's

December 21
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I remember spring of life but winter came too early. I was only nine i was playing in the woods with my black cat when i heard the scream of my mother. I had ran and crouched in the bush's. "WHERE IS SHE?!?!" roared a males voice. "I DON'T HAVE A DAUGHTER!!!" screamed my mother in protest. I heard knuckle meet cheek. "DON'T LIE!" i saw a BIG man walk out. His armor gleamed in the noons sun. The crest of England meant that he was with the palace but mother always said that they weren't always Noble.

I had stepped back and a branch snapped under my foot. His head turned instantly to look at the bush and he marched like a bear in armor. He was about to reach me when my mother was at the door screaming "RUN! ELIZA! RUN!!!!" i darted like the cat i was. Felix ran with me tell i heard the sound of a thousand boars charging at me. I look back to see him tackle me to the ground. i struggled and fought and kicked tell him cried in pain and to see Felix had bitten his neck. He grabbed him by the scruff and throw him against a tree. I ran and tears rolled down my cheeks. I had almost made it to cover when he had grabbed and lifted me by my hair. "GOT YOU! YOU LITTLE WITCH!!!" had dragged me by my hair. We got back to the house to see them slit my mothers throat. "MAMA!!!" i wailed. He hit my head and next thing i knew i was in a dungeon with shackles binding me to the wall.

I screamed my throat tell it felt like it was bleeding. "Ah this one?" said a crewed looking man. "Yes." said a deep voice. I look to see a man that looked like a royal. He looked at me and i stiffened. "Calm there little kitty." he grinned with the few teeth he had, not much of teeth. "Kitty? Hm...i like that." the man who looked like a good man grinned a sinful smile like slim. I pushed myself closer against the wall as much as i could. For some odd reason i knew what he wanted but it wasn't clear to me. The old man open the door and the royal came over to me. i flinched when he reached for me. "Shh....calm there kitty." he reached for me again. "MY NAME ISN'T KITTY! YOU b*****d!!!" i was so scared i almost screamed for my mother but i knew she would never come again. His hand gripped my jaw and he kissed me. I bit his tongue as it tried to enter my mouth. He slapped me so hard my head spun. "Now you listen girl. I payed money from you and i better get every cent back or you wont have a pleasant life." he wanted me to do things that i cold not phantom but knew they weren't right.

I kicked and flailed but he had me pinned and he forced himself upon me. Once he was done i curled on the ground and shook. "Next time make sure there tame next time before you sell them out." and he left. "Poor kitty." and he came over and tried to comfort me. "MONSTER!" he flinched back form the power in my voice. "YOU'LL ROT IN THE BOWLS OF HELL! I'LL MAKE SURE OF IT!" and he never came near me again.


I had hardly been touched after that unless they payed big money. My soul seemed to be gone with every hope of dying flew away. he keep sending men to force feed me and i kept throwing it right up. My body just wouldn't die. I was 12 now and life was just me in this hole in hell.

One day (i could never tell if it was night or day) i heard a scream. It wasn't the scream of a woman but of a man. I listened eagerly to hear more and my wish was answered by another scream and another. I relaxed as i knew they would never come near me again. My soul felt free. I cried tears of relief. Then i heard the door open and out of habit i flinched. I saw a shadow move down the hall and i heard the other girls cower away. A women walked down it with the longest hair i had ever seen. It was like silk flame curtain around her as it danced with her movements. She had green emerald eyes that glowed like fire. She was naked. She turned her head and stopped dead in mid step. I starred right back. Her body was caked in blood. "Thank you." was all i said to her and i fell asleep.

I woke up to the sunrise. I sat up and stared at the magic it held. Tears rolled down and i heard her chuckle. I turn to her, "What?" she looked at me and smiled a dazzling smile. "I've never been thanked by a human and seen one cry over a sun rise all in 24 hours." she seemed so amused by this. "Why did you kill them?" i asked. "They had taken my child." her face darkened. I giggled, "How can a demon have a child?" she looked at me in complete shock. Her jaw hung like dead meat on her face. "How did you know...?" i giggled again. "I just knew." she looked puzzled. She grabbed me and looked me in the eyes. She gasped. "Your marked by death." i looked at her funny. "How can a child....oh no. You were born with the touch of death."


I later learned that i was taken as a baby because i had been gifted by the death gods with the ability to take the souls like a shinigami but i have human blood. I was taken to the under world by Alexandria Shade, a vampiry, to Hades to be crowned as the Princess of the dead. Then i was stabbed by the Knife of Plague.
I was to live forever but because of my human blood i was re incarnated so i needed to marry a princess of darkness to stay frozen. They've been total douche bags so far.

I opened my eyes to see the stars. Alexa left me to myself. Hours later i felt that ghost of warmth become whole next to me. I look over at his eyes. I jumped out of my skin. I tried to move away but he had grabbed me around the waist. "Why are you running." he asked as he rested his head on my shoulder. "You know why." was all i said. "Hey." i turn to look and him and he kissed me. I felt the fires of hell burn like a living thing. The souls danced and sang. Hell hounds howled to the moon. The screams of the departed turned to laughter.

I lost myself in the laughter, the songs, the howls. He was on me and we kissed under the stars. The wind rustled the grass and our hair. We stopped and looked at each other and his eyes were alive with something I've never seen before.



Her kiss was like life. She full and lush. It could turn on you nay second but you reveled in it no matter what. I look down at her eyes that were like black and purple swirls of smoke. My eyes dripped with red. Death and the Soul taker. I kissed her again and she wrapped her arms around my shoulders. I felt like a light went on inside me. I felt so natural to do this with her that i was already taking off her cloths. I stopped in my tracks and looked at her. She lifted up and put her hands on my jaw and kissed me. I growled in my throat and we started. I moved us through shadows to my room in hell and we made love.


We had stopped because we were getting tired. I was hugging her from behind and resting my head on her shoulder. She had her eyes closed as i watched her sleep. A lock of hair fell in her face and i swept it away. Her eyes slowly opened and she looked at me. Her eyes were the sea once more. "Mourning." is what she said. "More like 1:15" she grinned. I kissed her, "Sleep well?" she sat up and looked down at me, "You should know." she got up and looked for her clothes that half were still back at her yard. "Where are my clothes?" she looked at me while she put her hands over her chest. I laughed, "I'll get you a big t-shirt." i got up to get her the shirt, "What about under ware?" i laughed hard, "At this point dose it matter?" she replied, "Yes." i kept on laughing and threw her the t-shirt.

She put it on and it was like a dress on her. I liked it on her, you could see the nipples poking out. "What?" she looked at me confused. "Nothing." i grabbed her and pulled her onto my lap.


I sat there and looked around. His room was like a normal boys room but the walls were made of molten rock. My stomach growled and he laughed as his growled too. He left to get some food when an imp appeared through the floor. "Yes?" i asked. Imp's were soul gatherer's in japan. They were a breed of fairy and goblins. They had over large black or deep green eyes, long twig limbs, light green skin, and had ears that had a long curve at the end. "Your father has requested for your preciseness." she had a slight slur of S's like a snake. They were also messengers of the under world. "Why is that?" my eyes narrowed. She disappeared. The coward.

He came back in with food. He looked at my face. "What's wrong?" i stood up. "I have to go but right after i eat." he grinned and handed me my food. Cooked Demon flesh. I took a bite and it was like Bar-B-Q. "Hm." and i ate more. Once i was done he stood up. We were suddenly in the thrown room of the under world. Hades sat on his throne of black stone engraved with battle scenes, step-mothers was a black lotus that was empty, and mine was made up the skulls of demons, fairy's, imps, harpies, vampiry's, ect. It had a curve in it were i could lounge in it.

"Daughter how you chosen?" his cold eyes softened when he looked at me. He may be a b***h most of the time but he did see me as his daughter. "What do you mean?" i looked at him. "He is a prince of darkness. More specifically Demons." i looked over at Demo. He looked at me puzzled. "I have to marry to stop my body and to rule the under world." and his face went to surprise. "Oh."

"Well have you?" he looked at Demo with a judging stare/glare.

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