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"When the angel came to life

She didnt know what to do

Cause all of those around her

Gave her nothing but the boo.

So she would hide away, deep and dark

Inside her uncovered soul

Letting out her cryful bark

She hopes to reach her goal.

As her life creeps forward quietly

In this silence her screaming goes ignored and feared.

The voices of the other worlds

Make her live in pain and agony

They wanted her to live in thiers

But she forced on to live in this harshness

This is what you dont see

This angel is me."





"Pain is the greates, yet worest thing that scars my life

All those suffering and hate

I cannot take it anymore

no freedom

friends dying

too much hurtness

Is this what God mends life with?

And still the question repeats;

Why?

Why me?

Why canit i be happie?

It seems that it will drown in my river of pain

Deep inside my head

This will never be answered."



"A place all alone

Where i can be happie

Its just a dream

I try to reach it every day

But everytime i have just some hope

Its taken by the things you say

My feelings come back

But then the tears soon follow

Dripping down this face

Falling into darkness

The dwelling of my fears

With frozen thoughts left behind

From this life with no freedom."



"This feeling deep inside of me is growing everyday

I dont know what to do

I dont know what to say

I dont know how to feel

Or if i should be feeling anything.

Everytime i try my best, all i get is yelled at

Everytime i have a question, all i get is lectured at.

What the ******** do they want me to do??

Sit in my room and scream my pain away?

This hurt is making me sivk

I feel tired but cannot sleep

I feel sad but cannot cry

Why cant they see what theyre doing to me?"



"Tears full of pain

Ive lost my way

Thoughts running through my head

My body walks but im still here.

With the tears ive shown

I could feed a flower

But with the uncried tears

I could fill another sea."