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There are many things I regret. You can't change what you already did, however. I just want to go over the things that I saw but decided to ignore.


In October, Ariel and Kaila got together. At the same time, Kaila decided to become nonexistant. Why? She chose Ariel over me so I chose happiness over her.

At the same time, Ariel came crying to me. "Oh, I'm in love with her and I don't know what to do. My mum is going to disown me blah blah blah" So what the hell did I do? I sat and helped her fat a** through it... for Weeks. Only to find out NOW that she was already together with her. More lies, yay.

I made myself believe Kaila wouldn't betray me again after about a year of knowing she would do it. I was prepared for mooonths. I wanted it to end... and I wanted Kaila to do it because then I couldn't be blamed.

She did it. She was behind everything... yet.. I was still blamed. I had Ariel on my a** for days.

Then for three months, Ariel wouldn't stop visiting my DeviantArt. I felt Cyber Stalked.


Point is... I regret many things but the main thing was ever thinking she cared. I was used and betrayed... Again.