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Hostility
I've been getting into conversations involving my actions towards certain people. People say I'm hostile toward them, yet very open towards a select amount of people. To be blunt, I'm just what makes me "me." I know most people won't accept this explanation so I might as well get into detail.
Over the years, I've experienced many things that changed my way of thinking during the years. The thing is, I've been through life-altering experinces in a very short amount of time. I've experienced the death of my first love, experienced many life-or-death situations, even the many racial issues in this world. Since the time of these events, I began to change the way I see humans in particular. I began to believe humans were nothing more than senseless individuals that care about nothing but themselves. They were willing to sacrifice anything for their own personal goals. Also, the pointless behavior I find people doing is a waste of time. The reason I'm hostile towards people is that I can only rely on myself. My overwhelming distrust towards people affects me to this day.
I suppose I should also explain why I'm open towards certain people.
The last few years, I've encountered certain people that are carefree and can be serious when the time comes. Also, due to my hostile nature, many people tend to avoid me. Those select amount of people were willing to take the time to get to know the "real" me, and not the "fake" me that people tend to assume from outer appearances. Despite all my rude gestures, these people still wanted to get to know me. The reason I'm overly open towards these people is that I'm comfortable talking to them. They are the only people I can trust.
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