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You know when you are a child and so naive and you are so scared when you think somthing is one way but it turns out it is another? Well, that happened to my friend. She had just had one of those awkward talks with her mom about love. She said love doesn't exist unless you see fireworks. She thought this meant any kiss so she went up to her dad and kissed his cheek and she didnt see them. She said "Mommy! I don't love Daddy! I didn't see the firethings!" Then her mom went over to where she was and said she doesnt need them to know she loves her family.

It's cute moments like that, that make me feel empty. I rarely had those "look back at and laugh" moments. i accidentally stole a bear when i was seven. I burnt my hand on the stove and it got stuck there. I was marveling at how my hands dimple when i hold out m hand straight telling me that i am a baby but i kept saying i was a big girl. The funniest one had to be the one where iwas holding my baby sister right after the birth, and......i sneezed on her.

Those are the only ones i had. Other than that my life has been pretty "not moment" worthy, not "look back at and laugh" deemable. I hate how this is bugging me while I want to go to sleep but, whatever. I needed to get it out. Reminding me of my old days make me feel better, i was so innocent then and undamaged my the outside world other than distant relatives the live far away. Being in my place is not fun. Drama isnt either but thats a new entry.

~Love Beauty