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they told me to get a good-bye ready... Just in case. It took a lot of courage for me to write this. I keep thinking that if I do it will make everything real. Even though I already know just how real it is. So hear is is, my goodbye to you. I hope you at least remember these words. I love you. So, so much . More then anyone can explain, I love you. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry for all the times I doubted you. I'm sorry for all the times I called to much or to late. Sorry I'm so weak. I'm sorry if I anger you. I'm sorry about that time I made you come in the pool, and that time I smeared frosting on your face. I'm sorry I writing this. I'm sorry I keep pausing to take breaths and I'm sorry I can't stop crying. I'm sorry for your curse. I'm sorry I can't help. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry... And I'm sorry if I can't find a solution for you. I'm sorry for your pain. I sorry if I'm too late. I'm sorry I can't fake the pain from you and your brothers. I'm sorry I can't just take everyone's pain away. I love you.iloveyou.I love you. I'm sorry I can't give my life so you can keep yours. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm being to repetitive. I . lone thing I will never be sorry for is loving you. Because I do and I still will. Forever. Your curse is hating me. My curse is loving you. But I want to. I just don't want to lose you. Maybe I'll keep this to myself. I can't complain about being broken, I can't complain about anything, your problems are worse. In short, I love you but I can't say goodbye. If you do become our enemy, kill me first.