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I am so confused and scared...two feelings that I want nothing to do with, but still continuously feeling...the boy that I love lives far away and I have a job and I make money but I want to buy a phone with it and also I need to buy bus tickets with it but I am confused on what I should buy...and the boy that I like is getting impatient with the wait and I feel like crap for making him hang on so long...I am scared that I might loose him to distance...I am confused, I want to get down on my knees and scream all the way up to the heavens and ask WHY?! why introduce me to the boy that I have SO much in common with and yet he's so far away? and like why did I get a job only to not have enough money to do what I want with it....UGH!! why must life be so confusing..it's a never ending line of questions waiting to be answered only to find out the answer is just another stupid question...