I wonder if this is what it feels like, to have the dam of emotions breakthrough. To have years of surpressed memories surround you. In some ways it feels like peace, in another it feels like agony. I know why that is, though I cannot explain peace as easily.
Treyz has disappeared, from the inn and perhaps the part that I find agonizing from my life. My little boy has disappeared, only to leave a note, a note I know wasn't written by him. He's too young, and the letter was so long and so full of thought and memories.
I remember now.... now I came by the single silver ring, it was given to me the day Trowa left. It was to represent everything we fought for, everything we had hoped for ourselves. I guess in a way it was perhaps too hopeful?
I want to know though is why. Why you did not come to see me and tell me yourself? Why you disappeared the way you did? I know why you took Treyz, I understand he needed time, but you should have been the one to tell me. Not leave me a letter and let me pick up the pieces of my broken memories.
They are broken memories, there is nothing else left. All the children in the world is not going to get rid of that.
I know you will read. I know you can read between the lines. I wish you really did say something. I'm worried about you. I tried to give you space, but now I'm not sure. You are scaring me.
Kara Winters · Sat Apr 08, 2006 @ 07:04am · 0 Comments |