Its a weird feeling when i look up at the grey and dead sky above me. I close my eyes and I let myself fall into the infinity wandering around on a dark road full of pain and confusion. The eternal questions: who am I? What am I doing here? Are haunting me even now when i dont even know what i am doing in this world. What’s the point of answering these questions when u get no answer at all? No matter who are you asking, no one will answer to your questions. Funny but suddenly i feel someone grabing my hand and draging me back to the reality. I wonder why did u do that and why didn’t u let me there? Another two questions that i cant answer. I look again up at the sky and its the same the grey sky of the fall. Winter will be here soon and its snow will cover my soul with a thick and chilling blanket of snow. My heart will freze again and everything will be still. Nothing....its nothing in my soul. A painfull emptyness that can’t be filled. Why? Why do i feel so alone? So many people around me and so many persons that love me and care about me but yet i fell so alone in this huge world. Never felt that lonley before in my life. Why cant no one understand me? Why is everyone staring at me like I just killed someone? I wish i could breakaway. I wish everything would be just a nightmare but sadly its true. The people feel so real the pain is so intense. No it can’t be a dream. No one understamds me no one will ever will. Sad but so true i must go on i must be strong. Weird huh? Well for me its just another day in the mediocrity of the life. Why is life so cruel? Why is she doing this to me? What did i do to her to deserve such kind of things? I dont know i really dont know. But what can i do? Who am i to stand in the way of destiny? Nevermind i get it now. Slowly i lye back and i close my eyes. I give up questioning life and destiny. I give up ting to understand so many things that a mortal could never understand. I let myself fall again in the infinity but this time i dont want to be saved. I want to find myself and i want to find the answers to my questions. But who am i to find the answers at such interesting questions? I’m just a mere mortal with limited thinkng and limited capacity of understanding. I’m not god that understands the misteryes of the univerese. Slowly i start understanding that questing for the answers of life are the misteryes of the universe is in vain. Slowly i stop walking and wandering and just let myself fall into the dark quietly obscurity.
