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Since the Olympics have started, my mom has been having the feelings that my brother and I are not living towards are potential, and since I'm around, she talks (but to me it's more like whining and nagging) about how smart I am and how much harder I should work to get a scholarship. I actually am quite smart, but I become unmotivated or lazy. I mostly do classwork, but with homework I become serverely bored and it can take hours to do one subject because I'm either distracted, or I'm just a slow worker. I actually tried to get in classes with friends, so I picked standartd classes. I did this twice, and both time they put my in classes with ghetto, stoner, screw-ups, and when i went to get my classes changed, the counselor would be like: "Hmm...well, it says you were in honors science last year, why not this year?" No one seems to understand that since I have been in honors courses for years, i have been stuck with the same group of preppy jocks and little b!tches that i do not like, never have liked, and if they all died in a tragic accident, i would not even care (maybe even satisfied)!
I feel this way about it because my classmates have shallow personalities and ephemeral passions; they talk to me only to give under-handed compliments, or use up all my paper and pencils, and when group assignments are given, I'm tha last one looking around for a partner in most cases. That's why I was happy in elemetary school because I had a variety of people to interact with, I could always find a few friends, and everything was fine.
In Middle school, they are preparing us for highschool. in High school, they're preparing us for colledge! Why cant we just live for right now? Why does my mom want me to grow up, when Evferything I could ever want is to be young? Being bound to nothing, no piece of paper reminding me of the past, not working all of my youth away, just to earn a title saying "college graduate" when most jobs today only use 7th grade education; everything after that is just extra, or its just review building upon and emphasizing what was already learned.
Sometimes i feel like my mom has no faith in my choices, and doesn't care for my happiness and satisfaction in life because she is to worried about money, and can only see me getting some career that makes lots of money, but gives me no satisfaction. Life is what we make of it, my friends.