This journal entry will be a little emotional, so bare with me here. It amazes me when you find the person you truly want to spend the rest of your life with. Who you literally can't stop thinking about; who you're not afraid to show your true self to. Who will never judge you and also wants what's best for you. Now, that person I'm talking about is my beautiful boyfriend, Michael.
I can't really explain how much I deeply love him, but I'm sure he knows how much I love him. He's my best friend, the person I want to marry one day, and can't wait to meet by next year hopefully (if I save my money, and try my hardest to find a job(s). We met right here in rally on Gaia, and I didn't know it'd be one of the best days of my life that I'll remember until I die.
We have yet to meet yet, but that didn't stop me from falling so very much in love with him. We consider ourselves in a LDR (long distant relationship.) It brings me to tears sometimes just thinking about how far we are and how much I want to kiss, cuddle, and hug him, but he always tells me to be strong because it will happen one day. I know in my heart it will happen, and we'll have the best relationship that I've ever known existed. Right now though, it's very difficult being this far from him. I just want to sneak on a plane and go to Florida and cuddle with him; but yeah, that's impossible. It's even harder now that I can't talk to him every day because of family issues that he's going through. (Not going to mention them). All I know is, I'm determined and made a promise to myself to find a job so I could visit my boyfriend either April of next year which would be spring-break or summer of June '13. I think summer would be more special because by June 8th, It'd mark three years of being together, and I can't think of another gift than getting on a plane and seeing him and doing all the things we wish we could do now.
I write him letters every week, and I put a lot of emotions in them as well. I send him gifts when I can, and write him little cards, and send him pictures when I'm in a picture taking mood, lol. I love him more than I love coffee (and that says a lot). One thing for sure: if you love someone, distance means nothing; and that is true. It only makes me want to be with him even more. I can't wait to see his face next year if I can at the airport and getting the hug I always wanted from someone. Ending this now with, a sorry this is a long ******** entry; and two: If you love someone deeply as I love Michael, show them please; don't let them go.
I love you Michael. (6.8.10). heart
