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After I felt the TRUE PAIN I chose not to be with someone else anymore. or should i say be attached to someone.


I have these doubts that peeps are not going to be honest with me. and that they are ALL the same.


As for me, RISKING will be the last choice. or sometimes its not even a choice.


Sometimes I choose not to talk to people around me because, I'm so done hearing things like "MOVE ON" "YOU DESERVE BETTER" "YOU SHOULDN'T FEEL BAD AT IT." "HE'S NOT A LOSS" or "ONE DAY HE'LL REALIZE WHAT HE GAVE UP OR HE LEFT".

It doesn't help anyway. It will just make me feel so bitter.
And it makes them stupid.
Because i already know that and all these things are predictable. It's like they haven't thought about it. It just came out from their mouth.
And i don't feel comfort from them.


Sometimes I would choose talking to people whom i don't know and talk about my feelings. Because they are more honest; people around me tries hard to comfort me, or lecture me---they didn't even listen to what I feel; they listen to what have happened.


But STRANGERS. They are great LISTENERS.


They can't judge you because they don't know you well, they comment based on their experiences, and doesn't try hard to comfort you. because even though its not their intention to comfort you, they give it anyway.


After I've been hurt with the person whom I thought i knew, i don't know how to start again.

If a Stranger comes in to my life, will i still be ready for the possibilities that a person might be the one for me? Will I take the "RISK" to talk to him, know him and eventually fall for him?