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So yea, today, after coming home from school... i call christine and mina and andrew are over. but yea, i was kinda depressed at this point, just remembering my painful past... but mina and christine figures that there was something wrong with me... so i lie to them that my dad hit me beated me in the morning and my sister began to cry while i was hit... but what happened was that i had an ok morning and my sister had a stiff neck... but... sadly mina and christine believed me and so then christine told her mom... yea... about how my dad hits me... anyways, so bobo comes over and they get all serious with me... and make me promise to tell someone with power about what my dad does... so i am really sad now because...i... i made mina and christine cry... two of the people i most love... i hurt them.. i made them cry... this made me feel more like crap than i did already... and so i was hoping to get a forgiveness from mina cause i got one from christine... but she didnt come home before 9... so i couldnt hear the forgivness for my stupidity and making her cry... so cant forgive myself... christine, kiara and bobo said that i didnt mean for them to cry and that they were jsut worried about me.... and... i dont know... maybe that is it... but still... i just wish to hear mina say "i forgive you, jimmy-kun" heh. and why am i making a big deal about it? even if i will speak with her tomorrow? because i am like that... i have a deep emotional pool... just full of everything. but most of love and sadness...