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what is going on????
my fiancee has been depressed lately it has been so bad that he won't kiss me or hug me or even say anything to me. in the morning he seems fine i mean he will cuddle for a few minutes but then... crying when he goes downstairs the day turns towards the worst. i go to school and most of the time work right after. he has been really odd i mean a few days ago he walked all the way to our friends house in a thunderstorm. it wouldn't be so bad but he didn't even tell me where he was going. he just said he was going out to strighen his thoughts and he would be back when he felt like it. the stupid a** hole crying he is being so distant lately and i hate it. no kisses, no hugs fine but not talking to me even to say hi how was your day? crying crying its not fair. today he seemed fine this morning till i meet him at work. he went home and i stayed to finish my shift when i got home...still not a single hello how was work, no kiss hi. three days now...three. what in the hell is wrong with him????? crying its tearing me apart. another thing he is telling me that we are going to be short on rent and he blames it on me...he thinks i'm spending to much money..a week ago i was having problems at school and had to ask for less time at work so i'm not making much right now. and he ******** gets money and goes nad buys things for his computer or alcohol to drink with "our" friends that i never see anymore crying in fact he went there tonight. he said he was going to drink and i asked if he was buying the drinks nad he said yes. then i asked him about rent nad he said it wasn't a check and then i asked well what about the money for the credit card bill the one he had me pay $37 on. i mean i said i would go half but he only pays ******** $10 and is now going to get alcohol drinks to hang out with "our" friends that i have been trying to hook up with and he is asked over nad not me. i wanted to hang with my best friend crying crying i just want to cry. so back to the ******** rent i need to give my entire next paycheeck to the ******** rent that he told me i only had to pay $100 because of less work time and he was going to pay $150 its not fair now i have to pay for most of it nad i asked if he payed $10 to the credit card then why not put the other $20 back towards rent nad he said he didn't want to talk about it right now. i wanted to smack him. what the ******** is wrong with him??? i want my loving fiancee back the one that talks to me and isn't ashamed to hold or kiss me in public. crying i haven't been feeling well the last three weeks nad just a few days ago he was really sympathetic but then he just stopped caring that i couldn't move from the bed without getting dizzy and sick. *heart break* he better snap out of it soon i don't know how much longer i can take this. crying . he barily says i love you to me now. he used to be so sweet and romantic then he got a ******** computer and started drinking agian and just...i don't know.
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