Lately I have had a really tough time with my self esteem. I don't know what it is, but I just can't seem to get over some things about myself, or most things about myself. Not too long ago, I tried losing weight, and for a while it worked, but I slowly stopped losing weight, or just stopped trying in general. I haven't gained anything back, but I feel like certain parts of me are getting chubbier and my body is just working against me. I just don't feel pretty at all, and I can go through my day and have a really good day, but I always become self conscious about something.
I just know that I can't compare to a lot of the beautiful women in the world. A lot of them really work on themselves to make themselves proud to be who they are, and others were just genetically blessed. Thin girls are often more appriciated. The ones that are petite and delicate. I know that I will never look like them, even if I were to lose weight and work on my body, and that really kills me sometimes.
I'm just tired of feeling so ugly. I wish I were more confident, but I look nothing like the girls that so many people see as attractive. I'm chubby all over. I don't have nice legs, or a nice a**. My stomach has strech marks and jiggles any time I move. I have fat arms, and my skin has these weird bumps all over them. I have a chubby face, and my skin is too red. I just see everything that is wrong with me and I get so discouraged so quickly. I just want to have a day where I look in the mirror and feel beautiful.
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