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I hope my friend in Richmond knows how much I miss her.
This makes me cry the most because I really do miss her.
I feel like I was the reason she moved away.
I lost a friend.
I had to do everyone else's work in group projects for that year because I got stuck with fake people.
I lost memories.
I lost opportunities.
I lost a long time best friend.
And when I tried contacting her, she asked "I'm sorry, but who's this?"
And my heart sank.
And then I told her.
She knew who I was but she didn't seem to be too happy.
My heart was shattering, piercing my lungs so the blood flowed into them, causing me to collapse. Gasping for air.
I want my friend back.
I need her back because everything seemed to fall apart after she left. Everything.
But the thing is, she has a much better life there, and I wouldn't want to take her away from that.
I just wish how much she knew I needed her.
I felt drained once she left.
I thought she was going to come back!
But she didn't and that's when I realized I wasn't getting her back.
She's gone and happy.
I won't intrude anymore, because I invited her to one of my shows.
She didn't respond.
But it's okay.
I totally understand.
You have to make a new life and forget the old to keep up with the new.
I get it. It's fine really. I'm just disappointed I'll never have another friend like her.