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God, where the hell do I begin this one? Aha.

First of all, I can't believe I haven't updated since acquiring surgery cuz OMG, talk about THE MOST AFFIRMING THING EVER.

Wellllllllll, maybe not THE most... We'll get back to that.

Okay, so obviously I had my SRS mastectomy. Procedure went great. Spent about a month recovering, and Mike took beyond excellent care of me during that time, which I was exceedingly thankful for. Even got to take a cruise with my fam to Mexico over New Year's, which was a great time because I got to wear an assortment of new clothes that complimented my recently-altered figure. By now I'm well over a year post-op, and my scars are well healed. My left n****e didn't recover all that well, but my right has about the same sensitivity it had prior to the procedure now and it's super cute, I love it. heart

I did indeed return to CGA for the 2015 season, and wow, what a season. Impossible to summarize really. It was that amazing. I returned as a Team Lead for Drop Tower, and I killed it. Getting to build up my own crew from the beginning was extremely fulfilling, and I was well-liked across the park because on several occasions I got to be a Lead at other areas (most commonly Grizzly, Vortex and Goldstriker). A promotion to Supervisor was indeed offered to me mid-season (I wanna say around June), however I chose to decline it for a medley of reasons. The first of which being that I didn't want to be moved to the Kidzville area, and the second of which being that I liked where I was and who I was with, I didn't want to abandon my area and my crew.

So about that "who I was with". I met someone, or rather, got to know someone I already knew in passing a good deal better. Neil, who I'd known of the prior year, was assigned to lead my old Grizzly area, which meant we were partners. His work ethic and enthusiasm were the first things that caught my eye (to speak nothing of his good looks). So one day after our shifts concluded, I told him I'd like to get to know him better and invited him on a hike. We went, and soon we were always shooting the s**t in the parking lot after work (sometimes late late into the night, 2AM or so) or grabbing burgers. We supported each other in times of stress and became fast friends. But there was also more to it than that; there was a mutual attraction. He was a gay male who saw me as 100% male, and had an attraction to me as a result.

In essense, the most affirming thing imaginable.

So I fell in love. And realized I had to let Mike go. After all the times he'd threatened to divorce me, we both were kinda surprised I was the one to pull the plug. But it made sense. I needed to be able to persue a homosexual relationship, and he needed to be able to persue a heterosexual one.

Meanwhile, I followed Neil into Haunt and supervised the brand new attraction, Insanitarium. Somewhere in there, I told Neil I "wanted to throw my lot in with him", and he said he'd "like that". So we made plans to move in together around February when we got our jobs at CGA back. I took a stint at Michael's (*vomits in mouth*) over the winter break. I also got my eggs put on ice during that time. And interestingly enough, it was Neil who accompanied me to the procedure rather than Mike. Holding his hand after waking from the anesthesia was heart .

So, we're living together. Moved in just a little over three weeks ago. We're not technically dating yet (even though literally everyone thinks we are), because he has some hang-ups about long-term relationships still. But I'm hopeful one day I'll be able to get down on one knee and make him mine.

Also, I began HRT a couple days before Christmas, so as of now, I've been on T for approximately two and a half months. Low/infrequent dose, so changes have been incredibly gradual, but I am pretty stoked about the muscle growth I've been stimulating from home work-outs. And my sex drive is through the roof. sweatdrop With any luck, I'll start to see hair growth changes and voice change in the nearish future.

There's more I could say, but that really about covers it. I really didn't see this path of my life coming at all, and it's surreal to look back on. I thought I was gonna "settle" with Mike for life; I didn't think anyone existed that could make me feel so strongly as to deviate, that someone existed who would accept me so fundamentally as male even pre-T. Threw me for a wild loop.

So who really knows where my life will be by the time I next update this (again, if Gaia is even still around! xp ).